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enoch i would die for my friends if it meant saving them without a second thought
but doing that to save somebody else is different than just throwing yourself into a deadly experiment when theyre already gone

[He pauses here. There's a lot more he could say, but—]

do you want me to stop talking to you
i already dealt with one guy with the same kind of loss earlier today
and you saw how i was when i lost my own filter
i still have a lot of thoughts on this but i dont want to make you spill your emotional guts if youre not comfortable with it

And when there's the smallest chance this deadly experiment may also help speed their revival? As I said, the idea may have been conceived as a test of the morgue creature's perceptions but when I did this I had the lights behind the drawers in mind. I don't fault you for being more cautious. You should be. You're young. Your death means more, is more of a waste. I'm four hundred years old, Davesprite. I've made my contributions to life many times over. It's easier to accept this risk, and easier still for someone I feel so close to.

I will never say you should agree with or, Lord forbid, emulate me. You shouldn't. The standards I hold myself to are for myself alone.

I don't know how long this effect will last. I would rather talk and say too much than isolate myself without knowing when the isolation will end. Isolation brings madness. If you are uncomfortable, however, I will not fault you for not speaking to me.

how the hell was it supposed to speed up his revival
did you think you were going to find fucking narnia dead people edition back there
and just shove their ghosts back into their bodies via the mystical morgue shelves in whatever hellscape you find on the other side
i dont care if youre 400
youre still alive and dont need to fucking throw yourself away on a dumbass experiment that makes no sense in the first place

You keep making these assumptions about what I expect that simply aren't so. I didn't know what I would find, and knew full well it's likely I would find very little, but even so I had to try. There was a chance I could do something, anything. Even the smallest understanding of how it is done could have been useful.

[Unfortunately for Davesprite, he's trying to talk down the man who jumped into a tornado to save a human soul - not even a human, just a soul, who likely wouldn't have been harmed by it in the first place.]

this is so stupid
if youre going to risk your life then risk it for something better than that
you werent going to find anything you were just going to be dead like everyone else whos pulled a morgue experiment
why does everyone keep doing this stupid dangerous stuff
i have way too many friends dead for no good reason and you all just go yeah lets add my name to the pile
just try me admin
or whatever system it is that decides who does and doesnt revive
and you all being so cavalier pisses me off like house keeps saying people will just come back or its worth doing until nobody comes back at all but screw that
i miss my friends enoch
if youre just going to try and kill yourself because you think you MIGHT learn something then fuck off

It was likely. I accepted that. But I'm not trying to die - not without hope of doing something else, at least.

At that moment there was nothing better to risk my life for. I'm tired of my friends dying, too.

I'm sorry. I know I'm upsetting you, and this won't help, but it felt right, even if I know it would feel right for no one else.

[Davesprite pauses here, caught up in his frustration. Arguing clearly isn't working; Enoch's mind is too clearly made up.]

im going to hang up here
if we keep arguing were just going to dig ourselves a circle shaped rut until we have the worlds roundest canyon
and im exhausted already
ill talk to you some other time
just dont fuck die again in the meanwhile

I dearly wish I could say I won't, but all I can truly offer you is I'll do the best I can. We both know the way this place can be. I know it is of no comfort to you but know that I do not seek death for its own sake.

I'm sorry for all of this.

Take care.

just be careful enoch
take care of your own self

[He hangs up here.]

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