[This is starting to sound like depression to John. Understandably so.]

Have you talked to any other doctors here at all about this, Enoch? Because honestly, it sounds like you might have a medical condition. I'm not sure if it's MN Poisoning or not, though. Depression is one of the symptoms we've seen from that. We can contact the Admin and ask her to confirm if you have MN Poisoning, if you'd like. If not, then it might be more standard depression that we could possibly treat with some medication.